It’s been four years already since I resigned from work and I admit that there are times that I’m thinking if this will be my destiny, if I will be a full time mom forever. There are moments that I’m also thinking if I could still get my life back. Don’t get me wrong, I have no regrets in choosing to be a full time mom because even it is not easy, I enjoy being with my son. Motherhood is really challenging, there are times that I want to give up but at the end of the day, I’m still thankful because I have the privilege to be with my son.
I did not dream to be a stay at home mom but when I had my son, everything change. There are two reasons why I chose to be a full time mom.
1.I could not leave him with stranger alone, I’ve heard and read so many horror nanny stories and I don’t want it to happen to my son. My husband wanted to hire household helper but I always declined because I had bad experience with my brother’s household helper. (she stole my jewelry, camera and money).
2. It is not a secret anymore that I did not grow up with my parents and it wasn’t easy especially when I’m sick, when I need someone to attend my school activities and meetings, when I need help with my school projects and when I need someone to attend my recognition and graduation day. Those were the times that I was looking for my mom. I was so jealous with my classmates because their parents are always there. I don’t want my son to experience those things so I want to make sure that I’m just here whenever and wherever he needs me.
But if my husband wants me to work again, I’ll get back to work as soon as possible but I just hope I could hire a good nanny and I would be available if my son needs me. I hope I still know how to make a resume; it’s been years since the last time I made one. Maybe I should hire a resume writer or look for resume services to help me.